Carri and I used to love our drunken" phone calls. Didn't mean we had to actually be inebriated. Just meant that we had shed all inhibitions and opened ourselves up to whatever was going on in the moment. S
I hope not. These last few weeks have been hard for me, remembering with laughter and tears, all of Carri's life. I miss her so much it hurts. This time of year is going to forever feel dark and lonely.
It is hard, but I have a smile in my heart knowing she isn't in any pain. I see her beautiful boys and know that she is really is still here with us all. When we need her, she is there. I feel feel her. Its hard for us as a culture to try to look at it differently. I feel like its ok to miss her or anyone who has passed. I think she'd want us to feel the love that is still here. Lots of cyber hugs to you both :)
It does feel dark and lonely many times, Cere...usually at night when everyone in my house is sleeping, all is quiet and there's nothing to distract me from thinking of her absence. However, I know Melissa is right when she says that Carri is still here. I have some pictures of the boys that I keep with me and just looking at their faces brings her back to life for me, a real concrete reflection that lives on. And everytime I try something new or face a fear (of which I have many) I know it's her giving me a gentle push in the right direction. The most wonderful thing that gives me peace when it's hard to find it is knowing that this life is a temporary one and we'll be reunited in Heaven one day. Hugs to both of you dear ladies.
I hope not. These last few weeks have been hard for me, remembering with laughter and tears, all of Carri's life. I miss her so much it hurts. This time of year is going to forever feel dark and lonely.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard, but I have a smile in my heart knowing she isn't in any pain. I see her beautiful boys and know that she is really is still here with us all. When we need her, she is there. I feel feel her. Its hard for us as a culture to try to look at it differently. I feel like its ok to miss her or anyone who has passed. I think she'd want us to feel the love that is still here. Lots of cyber hugs to you both :)
ReplyDeleteIt does feel dark and lonely many times, Cere...usually at night when everyone in my house is sleeping, all is quiet and there's nothing to distract me from thinking of her absence. However, I know Melissa is right when she says that Carri is still here. I have some pictures of the boys that I keep with me and just looking at their faces brings her back to life for me, a real concrete reflection that lives on. And everytime I try something new or face a fear (of which I have many) I know it's her giving me a gentle push in the right direction. The most wonderful thing that gives me peace when it's hard to find it is knowing that this life is a temporary one and we'll be reunited in Heaven one day.
ReplyDeleteHugs to both of you dear ladies.